I'm not going back, DAMNIT!

I'm pregnant and that's it. I'm not going back to that non-pregnant stuff from before. I have been begging God, the Universe, whoever will listen, to PLEASE let this/these embryo(s) grow and be safe and healthy. Hell, I'll even take semi healthy. What, you want me to spend some time in the NICU with a baby who can't breathe on it's own? I'LL TAKE IT! But I am not loosing this pregnancy. Not. Not. Not.

HEY! Let's talk about pregnancy things. FUN! So I'm 5 weeks pregnant. 5 WEEKS!!! Holy hell that is so exciting. I have to wait two whole weeks to hear a heartbeat and/or see the filled-with-baby sac. That seems like such a long wait and I am constantly thinking about how far away it is. During my two week wait I plan to rub my tummy and smile constantly.

Speaking of tummy, mine is huge. I'm bloated like you would not believe. What, don't believe me? Here's proof:

*Sorry about the picture quality but taking a picture of your own tummy is a difficult angle.

But seriously, are you freaking kidding me? I am 5 weeks pregnant and can't fit in ANYTHING. I feel like I could easily explode at any moment. I just read today that I should avoid salty foods...Done. Don't get me wrong, I love this early showing, but I'm not ready for random people to know yet. This belly makes that slightly difficult. People definitly have noticed my "weight gain". A friend at work who knows what we are going through told me I was fat yesterday...in a joking manner obvioulsy. But he definitely noticed that bulge I've got going on, which means others have noticed it too.

But serioulsy...I'M PREGNANT FOR REAL!!!!